Bewitching

So lately Hartlee's sleeping habits are not that great. She went from sleeping 8-10 hours straight to sleeping about 6 waking up to eat, going back to sleep for 3, waking up again eating a few more ounces and then falling back to sleep for about an hour. Not my ideal situation but what am I going to do? No mater what time she wakes up the minute she sees me or Evan she grins. Not just a little "nice to see you," grin, but a big "haha the jokes on you its 3 am and you are catering to my every need," type of grin. I try my hardest not to smile back at her. First, I dont want her to think she has ALL the power. Second, if I smile back then she smiles again, then I smile again, next thing I know im playing and talking to her completely forgeting the inapproriate time and then both of us are wide awake.

But how do I not smile at the cutest thing I have ever seen?

Happy 4 Month Birthday To My Baby

So the title pretty much says it all. I cant believe shes 4 months old today. Some days it feels like we just got home from the hospital and others it feels like shes been here forever. Either way its bitter-sweet.
Happy Birthday Hartlee Bug!! I love you

Things I Know For Sure

I love my husband. I mean I really love him. It scares me to think of where I would be if he had never come into my life. This is cheesy, but he saved me.

He loves me just as much.

I love Hartlee. When she looks at me and smiles I want to cry even if its 3:30 in the morning. It breaks my heart in so many ways.

I love my uncreated children.

I know now that my Mom was right about some things. Some not all.

I am insanely happy.

I have wonderful friends. They might laugh when I fall down, but they always help me up.

I miss T.C. everyday. His death has brought so many people together. I have an amazing extended family that I never would have had if he was here. Thank you T.

Beer is awesome.

So is chocolate.

God is real. He doesn't always give you what you want, but he knows what he's doing.

Money will never be as important as the relationships I have with people.

Karma can be a pain is the ass. Or it can be your best friend.

I say I love you, and act accordingly.

The Shoes Make the Outfit, Wait I Mean Diaper

Santa Cruz

This last weekend Evan, Hartlee and I went up to Santa Cruz to visit with Evan's sister, brother in law and their kids. I was a little nervous about driving 5-6 hours with Hartlee since she's not a big fan of her car seat but she was perfect. She slept most of the drive there and back. I couldn't ask for a better baby.

Favorite parts of our trip:
1. Jenn, Justin, Declan, and baby princess (this is how Greer refers to herself.)
2. Evan telling Declan lame in Spanish is el lamo.
3. Greer crying at the dinner table cause meat hates her.
4. The fudge.
5. Declan punching Justin in the face while they were wrestling.
6. Greer's attempt at Twinkle Twinkle Little Star.
7. Declan singing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star to Hartlee, soo cute.
8. Finding a Nutrageous candy bar at the Shell Station in Pismo, I cant find them in Simi.

I love Evan's family and I love Santa Cruz.

Hartlee

Daddy and Hartlee

The Kids

Greer and Hartlee

Declan and Hartlee

Water Works

Why is it that since giving birth all I do is cry? I know its karma for making fun of my mom all those years she cried at hallmark commercials, but its really ridiculous.