2008

2008 you have given me heartbreak. The death of my brothers best friend, a brother to me, an amazing man. RIP Devin. The death of one of my best friends moms on the heels of his own death. Thank you Laurie for being a Mom to me and so many of your other "kids." The one year anniversary of T.C.s death. I dont know if I will ever feel like hes been gone as long as he has. Just yesterday we hugged and kissed and told each other "I love you." You will always be by my side and close to my heart.

2008 you have given me the greatest experience of my life. Motherhood. There are absolutely no words that do justice to the way I feel when I see my daughters face. Her laughter and smile are perfection, her very existence is perfection. And of course Evan, even though he is not new in 2008 this phase of our marriage is. He is an incredible father. Seeing him with Hartlee fills my heart so much I think it might burst. And he has become an even better husband than before.

2009 you have great potential. Weddings - Amy & Chris and Chandra & Shane its about freakin time you guys. Babies - hopefully one of my brothers or sisters in law, as long as it is not Lizzy! And of course more love and happiness for ALL of my family and friends.

Happy New Year!!

I Wonder Part 2

Im not sure why this bothers me so much. Maybe its because their are hundreds, maybe even thousands of people who could have better cared for baby Caylee, me being one of them. God only knows why she got the family she did. I think I was hoping that the remains they found wouldn't be hers and that she was still alive. Alive and happy with people who cared more about her then the family she was given. That unfortunately was not the case.

I found this on scaredmokeys.com there is a whole article but I felt that this was the most important part:
"In the end the little girl who had no father listed on her birth certificate; it was her Father who cared the most and her Father who brought her home for Christmas."

Christmas Photo Sesh

Last Friday we went and had family Christmas pictures done here are a few of my favs:








The photographers name is Nicole Hahn, she is absolutely wonderful. Check out her website if you have a chance nicolehahnphotography.com.

These pictures we obviously took at home. Hartlee will hate us one day.

I Wonder

What the hell is wrong with people? I write this with a specific person in mind. Casey Anthony.

This morning while watching the news they reported that the skeletal remains of a small child were found about a half mile from Caylee's Grandparents house. How could a mother kill her own child? I know that Casey Anthony is guilty until proven innocent, but really? Her baby goes missing in June and she doesn't report her gone till July? A month. You wait a whole month to say something and then you want people to believe that you had nothing to do with it.

I just don't get it. Casey Anthony had a choice. She chose to get pregnant. She chose to keep her baby. With these choices comes responsibility. The minute you decide to keep your child you are making a commitment to protect, love and nurture them for as long as you live. So what one day she just gets tired of it and decides to stuff her baby in the trunk? Is she going to claim insanity? I don't believe for one second that she's insane. What she suffers from is selfishness.

Evan always tells me that he wishes he could be a vigilante, cause there are a lot pf people he would like to kill. Today I wish I could be one too.

Slightly Grinchy

So I know that Thanksgiving is the kick off to Christmas, but is it really necessary for every store to play non stop Christmas music? I think that a song here or there would get the point across. Do they think that the more christmasy the music the more holiday spirit their shoppers will have? Or is it a plot to drive me, and I'm hoping others, slowly insane? Im usually not a big Christmas fan but this year im actually pretty excited, its Hartlees first Christmas, I have a bunch of friends coming home and all of Evans family will be here too. But if I hear Jingle Bells one more time Im going to lose my mind.